Have you ever felt that way? Have you felt like you were walking into a situation that you had more questions then answers about what you were supposed to do.
5 years, 3 months, and 2 days–I walked into a room, stared at the back wall and waited for my girlfriend to come through the doors. About 20 minutes later I no longer had a girlfriend, I had a wife. I had read a few books, and observed a few men, but the truth is I really didn’t feel like I had a clue how to be a husband. Five years later, I’m still figuring it out and I’m blessed with an awesome wife who has been extremely gracious.
1 year and 20 days-I sat in a hospital room and waited for Noah to make his grand entrance into the world. He took a little longer than we thought, but finally that evening we were able to hold our son for the first time. I experienced that immediate transfer of love that you have heard about. Noah hadn’t taken his first step, said his first word, or served his first ace, but I was extremely proud to be his Dad. While we sat there just looking at him that for the next couple of days I remember thinking once again, I don’t have a clue what I was doing. My Dad was a great example of what being a father looks like, but there was so much that I don’t know.
1week 6days from today-The Passage Church will officially launch and one thing I have once again realized is that I don’t have a clue. Church Planting is a ministry like non-other I have ever experienced. I have been blessed with a great team, great resources, and great mentors, but that doesn’t change the fact that I am treading on ground that is unfamiliar and sometimes overwhelming.
In all three circumstances the one constant must be my sole dependence upon Jesus. It is through living a life that dies to myself and seeks to allow Christ to live through me that God will be honored in my marriage, in my family, and in HIS church. People often will say, “I hear you are starting your own church,” and while I know what they are saying, I hope they wrong. I hope the day never comes where I view The Passage Church as “my” church, but only a vessel that God will use to bring people to a saving knowledge of His grace and mercy found only through the sacrifice of Jesus.
As you read this please pray for us as we prepare to launch. As you read this please pray for our area. As you read this pray for our leadership. As you read this please pray for me — cause I don’t have a clue.
matt
